Nervous?? Not me!

35 days until the wedding. Is now the time I should begin to feel nervous? Should the threat of my "impending doom" be taking its toll on my psyche and giving me nightmares at this point?


Yeah...that's not the case.

I HAVE experienced an emotional change, however, but for the better. I'm very excited about The Day. Seems like the closer it gets, the more anticipation I feel for it to arrive. And it's not like "I can't wait for this to be over!" I'm genuinely excited to be marrying the woman of my dreams.

I think it's because I'm very involved in the planning process that I am so emotionally attached as well. It's not just Carollette's wedding - it's just as much mine. This shouldn't be a burden; it's been really fun for me. We've had plenty of sleepless nights (mainly on the invitations), but the finished product, as many of you will soon see, was well worth it to me. Working on this together is truly bringing us closer. I know a few of my boys who are getting married have the "just tell me when to show up" mentality. While I'm not knocking them, I just think they're missing out on an excellent opportunity to grow closer to their ladies.

Events adding to my excitement

I called to check on the marriage license the other day, but they said it becomes null if the marriage isn't performed within 33 days. On Monday it will be exactly 33 days, so I think I'll do it then.

Wednesday we got a phone call that we had gotten the apartment we wanted. We had previously been waitlisted, but got in just the other day. It's the Studio One Apartments on Woodward just south of Warren. Brand new building, and walking distance from Wayne State. Perfect!

I'm officially done with classes as an undergraduate as of Thursday. Now I can focus on landing a really good job and studying for the LSAT. My bachelor's degree was a real monkey on my back for years. Now I have finally successfully killed that annoying primate.

AND I began imagining what the actual day will look like. Don't be late; I'm gonna have a GRAND MAGNIFICENT entrance...can't wait!! :-)

We (Me+Thomas+God) are a team YAY!

So...lately I have begun to feel really stressed with the time window between now and the wedding shortening and the "to do" list getting longer and longer.  For literally months now, we have been struggling to get our list together and mail out the remaining save the dates. Now finally, (with the exception of 11 addresses) it is done! I cannot explain the relief I feel :)

The best part about it is that we worked on it together. Wedding stuff isn't always fun or easy but we stayed up until almost  3 a.m. to get things done. I am really glad he helped instead of taking the typical male, "I just wanna put on a tux and show up", type of attitude. Aside from his creative envelope stuffing and stamp placement, he also pointed out the postage had gone up since we bought stamps. (Such excellent proof that two heads are better than one!) If we would have mailed out all those envelopes with the wrong postage....YIKES! I would have been in tears, no literally tears, when they all came piling back up at my doorstep. Anyhow, he has agreed to take them all to the post office and make sure the correct postage is in place before we mail them so I am really relieved. 

Last night I was feeling such anxiety about all the things that still need to be organized and paid for, I started feeling a lot of tension and pain in my chest. Thomas was kind enough to read some Bible verses to me to kind of help me refocus my mind and de-stress. That really meant a lot to me... I don't know how often he thinks about this but I believe God speaks through people sometimes and last night I think that is what happened because what he read really moved and lifted my spirit in a way that only God can...I know that beyond the wedding planning madness, God has a plan for us and I am truly looking forward to our future together ;) Now if we could just get the invitations ready to go in the next three weeks...Lord have mercy! LOL!